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The poem I wrote to my Angel in Heaven on our five-month wedding anniversary, sadly, also the day of his visitation at the funeral home.  I put this poem on a floral arrangement that I got for Neal that had a red jagged line of flowers on a white flower heart denoting our broken hearts.  With the assistance of the funeral staff, I put this poem on Neal's heart after the visitation and it now rests with his heart and mine for eternity.

 

This is probably my favorite
picture of Neal because of the
memories it brings and the happiness 
brought to both of our lives...
and the smile on his face....
reminds me of our love and 
passion for each other....

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

5/10/01

To My Angel; 

You were a loving, beautiful, caring, sensitive, adoring, and wonderful husband.  I know how very much you were looking forward to our first of two children and I, along with many others, hate the fact that our only child will grow up knowing her daddy only in pictures and without your loving hands to guide her and help make her strong. 

You gave to everyone you could the best way you knew how .... and I know that will continue to bring smiles to not only my face, but to the hundreds of others who were able to share a part of your life that was stolen away from you. 

You taught me how to truly love for the first time in my life and gave me a child to carry on your name.  I swore before I ever met you that I would never fall in love again because it was just too painful and that I'd never have a child to bless this earth.  You changed all that.  And you promised you'd never hurt me or make me go through the pain that I'd gone through before.  Over what seemed to be forever, you fought your way in and made me believe in love and hope and a future together. 

I always called you my Angel from Heaven, because only an Angel could truly bless my life the way you did every single day.  Well, my Angel, you're now in Heaven, and I feel that pain (times infinity) that you said I'd never feel again.... but I did finally experience the love of a lifetime that so many can only hope to find.... and I will have our child, the one I never thought would bless my life.  You are now gone in the physical sense, but you live on in memories of everyone who knew you.  And ... you will most definitely live on through our child yet to come.  I thank God for Angels, for I loved one with all my heart and soul, and the other, grows stronger and stronger inside of me everyday to bless this world in late September with a smile just as beautiful and loving as it's daddy's.  

All my love Pooh... Forever.


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My Personal Tribute to My 
Soul Mate

Neal gave this to me on our one-month dating anniversary...
Soul Mates from the start

Just like an Angel,
You came into my life one unforgettable day,
And swept me away
from my far-too-loud-and-busy world,
Quieting my mind,
Enchanting my dreams,
And showing me what love can be.

You'll never know how deeply you have changed me --
How sweet I know it would feel
Just to hold your hand in mine again.

I love you My Lifetime Pooh...
Always and Forever Angel

I can't wait to be with you again...

I long to taste your sweet kisses,
feel your heart beat next to mine,
and whisper secret midnight promises
in your ear.

I want to laugh with you,
love with you,
and just hold you tight
in the warmth of shared silence.

I miss you more
than you could possibly imagine,
and I want you to know
you're on my mind
and in my dreams....
Always

I love you and miss you with
all my heart and soul...
Always & Forever,
Your wife

To the angel who blessed my life 
for the past two years...

Now I’m the one with the broken heart
And you’re the one I’m thinking of
How am I to stay apart,
When you’re the only one I’ve truly loved?

I will always hold on to our memories together
The precious moments that we shared
And you, my beautiful, loving, angel I will always remember
For now, always, and forever
You will be my angel, my husband, my soulmate, and my lover

You blessed my life with our child yet to come
And I thank God that can never be undone
He will know his daddy just as I
A man who loved to help, laugh, love, and cry

I’ll leave my heart open and loving
Just the way you taught me to be
But only you, my loving angel, shall ever hold the key
Having experienced the beautiful love you constantly gave
Will help me to continue on with those very happy days

I promise my love to you Pooh, always and forever
Please know that you will leave my heart and soul, never